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From Trials to Triumph, From Bound by Sin to Set Free!

Bam! Bam! Bam! My head bounced off the wall behind me. Anger and rage, as if something dark had completely consumed his body. Blank, black, nothingness in the eyes of my father, as I looked back in anger and disbelief.

How could he?

Why would he?

I did everything he wanted me to—where did I go wrong?

Thoughts racing one hundred miles per hour through my head—as I experienced demons face to face.

The demons of my earthly father—stared deep into my soul—as I prayed- “Lord, help me! Forgive him for he knows not what he is doing.”

In the split seconds of this all unfolding—I remember thinking I hope the picture on the wall above me does not fall and hit us— how far is he going to go—When I get my feet back on the ground—I am out of here!

He finally let go, as my feet hit the ground, the words spewed out of my mouth—like word vomit “YOU ARE FLIPPING (only I said the real one—the big one—the “F” bomb”) OUT OF CONTROL—I AM OUT OF HERE!”

I quickly walked towards the door—grabbed my purse—in attempt to exit without any further exchanges.

I knew better than that.

As more words of hate, anger, and bitterness spewed from his mouth towards me—I stood in shock, anger, and disbelief—after everything I have done and been through—this is what I get?

And there it was again—the word vomit—It was like I had zero control over my words—and out it came— “IT WAS MY SON—MY SON—THAT THEY TOOK AWAY! HOW DO YOU THINK I FEEL?” I screamed, before I quickly left—giving him a dose of his favorite angry gesture—I slammed the door behind me and b-lined home.

I lived next door at the time, so I did not have far to go and there was not much distance between us—we literally shared a yard. This was the beginning of the end, the boiling point that would bring me to where I am today. After about thirty-one years of struggling, fighting, and going through some of the darkest days of my life—It was time to Rise!

Rise Up! Be the woman I am called to be—take my life back—find my freedom and joy once again.

After many years of praying, seeking, and crying out—God answered me. His answer was NOT one I expected nor one I liked.

He said to me, clear as day—”Stephanie, are you going to listen to Me, God the Father, or your earthly father? You cannot live to please us both. Seek first my kingdom and all things will be added to you.”

“Ok, God—I am all in—I don’t know what this means or where you are going to lead me next—but I am all Yours.” I said, “You lead the way.”

Take a journey with me through a season of devastation, loss, abuse, and heartache. From victim to victor—from trials to triumph—from loneliness to surrounded by God’s love and presence.

Read through my time of struggle and see the relations to your life trials. Learn that no matter what, God is on your side.

When the pressure is on—it is not a time to quit—it is the time to rise up!


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5 Reasons God Might Make Us Wait

Waiting helps us learn to trust in God alone and then builds on that trust. Waiting teaches us that God’s purpose, plan, and will– will ALWAYS prevail– if we put our trust in Him. God is a faithful and patient Father. The Bible tell us we are made in His image and we are slowly transforming to be more and more like Him.

Waiting builds up our patience, our obedience, our endurance and teaches us how to quiet our minds from worry and keep our focus on our faith in God. In a season of waiting, we learn more about God himself, thus helping us to grow into the person He was created and called us to be.

5 Reasons God Might Make Us Wait

  1. To reveal our true motives, to ourselves.
  2. To build patience in our lives.
  3. To build anticipation.
  4. To transform our character.
  5. To build our intimacy and dependency on God.

We all have season’s of waiting in our life. Some of these seasons may be short– others may be longer. One of my longest seasons of waiting, lasted about four years before I could finally see what God was doing.

The key to waiting is how we wait.

Just as with all decisions in life, there are two choices. You can wait in anger, bitterness, discouragement, and fear– or you can wait with eager anticipation for God to fulfill His promises.

Waiting can make us better or bitter. What will you choose?

The ability to wait on God, comes from knowing His promises and being confident in Him. Focusing on God– who He is– and what He is doing helps us to stay positive and grow through the waiting season.

We have to keep the balance between positive and negative while we are waiting. Know God’s character, His principles, His promises, and most importantly His power. Be confident in His wisdom, love, mercy, timing and will.

God promises to never leave us nor forsake us. He is on our side and will turn what the enemy meant to harm you into good.

When we wait, we have to learn to seek the Lord.

Ultimately, waiting is claiming God’s promises by faith and resting in what God is doing– even when we can not see it.

Prayer

Heavenly Father,

Thank you Lord for Your promises and for being a trustworthy Father. Lord, I am thankful that You are working on my behalf, even when I do not see it. God, I pray that You touch the life of each person who reads this message. Open their hearts and minds to Your Word, the truth in which will set them free from fear and worry.

Lord, I pray that You would surround each person with Your love and protection. Calm their spirits and give them clarity. Help them to remember Your promises and stand upon Your Word when the trials of life coming roaring in.

Lord, I pray You would renew their strength each day as they fight the fears that come with waiting. I pray that they would seek You and put their trust in You, over every situation in life.

Thank you Lord for the many blessings You give us each and every day. I declare in Jesus name that all worry bondage is broken today! I declare no weapon formed against you shall prosper. I declare God’s promises over Your life, in Jesus mighty name I pray.

Amen

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Daily Devo- Waiting to see the harvest

Coming to Jesus and building a relationship with Him is a process. Faith and trust in God doesn’t just happen overnight- they are fundamentals we learn as we study God’s Word. Often times it takes multiple exposures or experience’s with Jesus for someone to make a decision to follow Him.

We need to be sensitive about where those we are witnessing to are in regards to their walk of faith. Everyone learns and processes information differently. We certainly do not want to push someone away from God by being overbearing and not respecting their individual journey with Him.

Just as a farmer sows seeds and has to wait to harvest the crop- as do we when it comes to sowing spiritual seeds into the lives of others.

The old saying goes ‘you can lead a horse to water but you can’t make him drink’.

Same goes for leading the lost to Jesus.

We can give them the information, share our testimony, and pray fervently for them. We can not make them accept Jesus. We were all given the freedom of choice when God created us. He longs for us to accept Him, His love and Salvation but ultimately it is our choice.

As Christians we are responsible for sharing the good news of Jesus with the lost. It is NOT our responsibility to “save them”- ONLY Jesus can save them. Each person must choose Him for their own life.

God has already chosen us from the beginning- when we were created in our mothers womb. He is waiting for each of us to reach out to Him. NOTHING we do is too much for God to handle. He only wants us to run to Him not away from Him.

We are called to sow seeds of faith, truth, and the good news of Jesus to those we interact with through-out our life. Then pray for the “harvest” of those spiritual seeds and be patient while waiting for them to metaphorically grow into foundational roots of truth in their lives.

Bible Verses about Sowing Seeds

Prayer

Heavenly Father,

Thank you for this message on sowing seeds and being patient while we wait for the harvest in the lives of others. Lord I thank You for your continued guidance and discernment as I study Your Word. Lord I pray that each person who the message reaches would have You at the center of their life. Lord I pray that we would each be vessels for You to use- that we would all be willing to step out in faith and sow spiritual seeds into the lives of those around us. Lord I pray that You would give each of us the patience to allow the seeds to grow in others lives. Lord I pray You would lead and guide our every step. Give us the courage to step up and step out when You are calling us to do so. Lord Thank you for Your Word and many blessing. For being a promise keeper and never leaving our side. In Jesus might name I pray.

Amen

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5 Reasons God Might Make Us Wait

Waiting helps us learn to trust in God alone and then builds on that trust. Waiting teaches us that God’s purpose, plan, and will– will ALWAYS prevail– if we put our trust in Him. God is a faithful and patient Father. The Bible tell us we are made in His image and we are slowly transforming to be more and more like Him.

Waiting builds up our patience, our obedience, our endurance and teaches us how to quiet our minds from worry and keep our focus on our faith in God. In a season of waiting, we learn more about God himself, thus helping us to grow into the person He was created and called us to be.

5 Reasons God Might Make Us Wait

  1. To reveal our true motives, to ourselves.
  2. To build patience in our lives.
  3. To build anticipation.
  4. To transform our character.
  5. To build our intimacy and dependency on God.

We all have season’s of waiting in our life. Some of these seasons may be short– others may be longer. One of my longest seasons of waiting, lasted about four years before I could finally see what God was doing.

The key to waiting is how we wait.

Just as with all decisions in life, there are two choices. You can wait in anger, bitterness, discouragement, and fear– or you can wait with eager anticipation for God to fulfill His promises.

Waiting can make us better or bitter. What will you choose?

The ability to wait on God, comes from knowing His promises and being confident in Him. Focusing on God– who He is– and what He is doing helps us to stay positive and grow through the waiting season.

We have to keep the balance between positive and negative while we are waiting. Know God’s character, His principles, His promises, and most importantly His power. Be confident in His wisdom, love, mercy, timing and will.

God promises to never leave us nor forsake us. He is on our side and will turn what the enemy meant to harm you into good.

When we wait, we have to learn to seek the Lord.

Ultimately, waiting is claiming God’s promises by faith and resting in what God is doing– even when we can not see it.

My prayer for you

Heavenly Father,

Thank you Lord for Your promises and for being a trustworthy Father. Lord, I am thankful that You are working on my behalf, even when I do not see it. God, I pray that You touch the life of each person who reads this message. Open their hearts and minds to Your Word, the truth in which will set them free from fear and worry.

Lord, I pray that You would surround each person with Your love and protection. Calm their spirits and give them clarity. Help them to remember Your promises and stand upon Your Word when the trials of life coming roaring in.

Lord, I pray You would renew their strength each day as they fight the fears that come with waiting. I pray that they would seek You and put their trust in You, over every situation in life.

Thank you Lord for the many blessings You give us each and every day. I declare in Jesus name that all worry bondage is broken today! I declare no weapon formed against you shall prosper. I declare God’s promises over Your life, in Jesus mighty name I pray.

Amen

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Faith while you wait

Keeping faith while you wait is extremely difficult when referring to waiting on God’s timing. We have to remember in our impatience that His timing is perfect– never early and never late. This means when you are praying and asking God for something; regardless if it is materialistic or spiritual, God is not going to give us something that we are not ready for.

If what we are requesting from Him is going to cause us more harm or heartache, God is not going to give that something to us. God knows the desires of our heart and even though we may think we know what we want or need God always knows better. God’s plan is to help us not to hurt us, to give us hope and a future.

Let’s be honest– No one wants to wait but we all have to do it.

According to a Timex survey, Americans wait:

  • on average of 20 minutes a day for the bus or train
  • 32 minutes whenever they visit a doctor
  • 28 minutes in security lines whenever they travel
  • 21 minutes for a significant other to get ready to go out
  • 13 hours annually waiting on hold for a customer service
  • 38 hours each year waiting in traffic
  • those living in Big cities wait in traffic more than 50 hours annually

= about 37 billion hours each year waiting in line somewhere
Human beings spend approximately 6 months of their lives waiting in line for things, it means like 3 days a year of queueing up. The average person spends about 43 days on hold with automated customer service in one lifetime. Those who take the bus will wait about 27 days of their lives waiting around on the platform or at the bus stop. (view the full article here)

Waiting is going to happen weather we like it or not. The sooner we accept it and learn to embrace the wait while we keep faith, the happier we will be. It could be waiting in traffic, at a restaurant or for an answered prayer from God, regardless prepare to wait.

Let’s look at one of the examples above, waiting at a doctor office. When we have to wait to be seen and feel as if it is taking too long, we don’t try to rush the doctor or convince other patients to leave. Although we may be a bit frustrated, we wait. We have faith that when it is time, a nurse will come to get us.

If we do not try to rush the day to day things – why do we try to rush God’s hand?

As you read per the timex survey waiting is inevitable, so why not learn to have faith while you wait in all things?

Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1)

We have faith that even though we have to wait in traffic we will eventually get home. We have faith when we flip the switch in our home the light comes on. We have faith that we will work and at the end of the pay period we will receive a check. These all come very naturally for us– we don’t often wonder if things will “work out” in the above day to day scenarios, we just have faith and know that they will. This is the kind of faith we need to have in God and His promises.

When God tells us to wait– there is always a reason– even if we never get to know it. If we would have faith in God during our “Biggest Storms”– as we do in the examples given– we would be able to live a much more peaceful, enjoyable life. Not spending our days worrying about things we can not change nor prevent. Instead spend them embracing the journey knowing God is by our side and already has everything worked out for our good– we only need to trust in Him.

Romans 8:28
And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

Turn your worry into worship, your fear and fearless, and have faith while you wait! God’s got you!

We are often tired, worried, and purely exhausted during the most trying times in our life– but when you put your faith into God and allow Him FULL CONTROL over your life we will not grow weary.

Isaiah 40:31
But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.

Having faith while you wait doesn’t mean you are doing nothing. In fact, you are actively praying, trusting, and having faith that God has a good plan and you do not have to worry.


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