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From Trials to Triumph, From Bound by Sin to Set Free!

Bam! Bam! Bam! My head bounced off the wall behind me. Anger and rage, as if something dark had completely consumed his body. Blank, black, nothingness in the eyes of my father, as I looked back in anger and disbelief.

How could he?

Why would he?

I did everything he wanted me to—where did I go wrong?

Thoughts racing one hundred miles per hour through my head—as I experienced demons face to face.

The demons of my earthly father—stared deep into my soul—as I prayed- “Lord, help me! Forgive him for he knows not what he is doing.”

In the split seconds of this all unfolding—I remember thinking I hope the picture on the wall above me does not fall and hit us— how far is he going to go—When I get my feet back on the ground—I am out of here!

He finally let go, as my feet hit the ground, the words spewed out of my mouth—like word vomit “YOU ARE FLIPPING (only I said the real one—the big one—the “F” bomb”) OUT OF CONTROL—I AM OUT OF HERE!”

I quickly walked towards the door—grabbed my purse—in attempt to exit without any further exchanges.

I knew better than that.

As more words of hate, anger, and bitterness spewed from his mouth towards me—I stood in shock, anger, and disbelief—after everything I have done and been through—this is what I get?

And there it was again—the word vomit—It was like I had zero control over my words—and out it came— “IT WAS MY SON—MY SON—THAT THEY TOOK AWAY! HOW DO YOU THINK I FEEL?” I screamed, before I quickly left—giving him a dose of his favorite angry gesture—I slammed the door behind me and b-lined home.

I lived next door at the time, so I did not have far to go and there was not much distance between us—we literally shared a yard. This was the beginning of the end, the boiling point that would bring me to where I am today. After about thirty-one years of struggling, fighting, and going through some of the darkest days of my life—It was time to Rise!

Rise Up! Be the woman I am called to be—take my life back—find my freedom and joy once again.

After many years of praying, seeking, and crying out—God answered me. His answer was NOT one I expected nor one I liked.

He said to me, clear as day—”Stephanie, are you going to listen to Me, God the Father, or your earthly father? You cannot live to please us both. Seek first my kingdom and all things will be added to you.”

“Ok, God—I am all in—I don’t know what this means or where you are going to lead me next—but I am all Yours.” I said, “You lead the way.”

Take a journey with me through a season of devastation, loss, abuse, and heartache. From victim to victor—from trials to triumph—from loneliness to surrounded by God’s love and presence.

Read through my time of struggle and see the relations to your life trials. Learn that no matter what, God is on your side.

When the pressure is on—it is not a time to quit—it is the time to rise up!


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Give it up!

Do you feel like your in a constant battle? Like your fighting a fight that is impossible to win? Life just keeps circling around you and you feel lost in the whirlwind it leaves behind. You keep feeling like your never going to make it, the harder you try the worse things seem to be getting…

Now.. think of one of the biggest trials or obstacles in your life right now. Maybe its finances, maybe it’s your marriage, Maybe a job, or maybe its your children; the list could go on. Do you have it? Good.

Let me ask you this.. How many times in the past week have you prayed over that particular situation? Have you been seeking out God’s direction or relying on your own ways and thoughts to solve what lies before you.

The Bible tells us in Proverbs 3:5 to trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding. We are to bring each and every request before Him, He will provide your needs.

Philippians 4:6 Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;

Philippians 4:19 And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.

We as humans are constantly trying to control everything that happens in our lives. The harder we try to control every little thing around us the more frustrated we become. Before we know it we are drowning in a pool of negativity and pulling everyone around us down. The sooner we come to grips that we are NOT in control, the sooner we can start living happier more fulfilling lives.

Stop trying to control what happens next. Stop trying to control your children’s every move. Stop trying to change and control your spouse. Stop trying to control things that are out of your control. Stop trying to be two steps ahead of God… just STOP! It will never work.

1 Peter 5:7 says casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.

This means we need to give it up, let go, and let God. If its worth complaining about, than it’s worth praying about.

Psalms 55:22 Cast your burden on the Lord, And He shall sustain you; He shall never permit the righteous to be moved.

I ask that you take the time now to listen to God’s word and seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you (Matthew 6:33).

If you have never prayed before or asked God for help there is no right or wrong way to pray. God knows your heart and he is always listening. I challenge you today to take the time, grab a notebook, and write a prayer to God asking for His guidance and direction with whatever trial is pressing on you today.

It’s time to let go of the things that are holding us back. Let go of the what if’s and the wondering of what will happen next. Truth is weather you what if and wonder it is not going to change what is going to happen. God is in control! He will help you through whatever lies ahead. All you have to do is let go and trust God. He will never let you down. He will never fail you. In fact, He is the ONLY one whom can truly help you through whatever trial you are struggling with.

Heavenly Father,

Lord I pray for each and every person reading this post. Lord Jesus, touch their hearts, open their minds and give them clarity to understand Your Word. I pray they would cast their cares upon you Lord and let go of the things in life that they can not control. Lord I pray that each would learn to seek You first in all they do, in times of trials and tribulation, but also in times of rejoicing. I pray each person would feel Your love and presence and know that You, God, are always near. I pray that this article reaches those that need to hear this word and that You God would get all the glory, honor, and praise in Jesus name. Amen